The Mental Breakdown

So it's about 6 minutes after midnight and I just got home. Typical, me coming home at a somewhat reasonable hour for a 20 year old. Aren't I supposed to be out till the crack of dawn? Huh..who knows.
So this week has been an emotional roller coaster...and a busy one. Monday I worked, on my way home from I work I get a text message from a friend about his girlfriend/baby mama cheating on him and catching her on video camera...long story...I'll tell it another time. So I've dealt with that all freaking week, Tuesday I was pretty much called out on my shit for that. Then Wednesday rolls around...ohhh Wednesday, a day that will suck forever. I roll into work at about 12:30 when I'm supposed to be there, I get asked about my schedule from now on by my supervisor, no big..told her my hours I would like to work, whatever. 10 minutes before the freaking work day ends I get called into the conference room...never a good sign...my supervisor hands me a slip of paper...I read it...I'm getting fucking fired. Awesome. Reason: Failure to perform at a reasonable level. Are you fucking kidding me? Fabulous. So I had to walk back out to my desk in front of everyone giving me stupid confused looks. I slam my shit around, pack it all up, clock out and head for home. I called my mom and I just lost it. Literally all of my emotions hit me all at once. I cried for about 4 straight hours. If you knew me, I don't cry. I'm a tough girl, nothing EVER bothers me. So much has been going on lately that I have no idea what to do with myself. I moved in with my sister, had to deal with drama from my dad about that. My brother just got deployed to Kuwait. My mother is insane and can barely make a sentence. Work stressed me out to the max bc I literally thought I could get fired at any second (huh, look what happened). I have absolutely no alone time, school is/was a complete bust. I'm lonely, boys are fucking stupid. I am constantly around people that I really wish I wasn't at times, I'm constantly making people happy. And now I got freaking fired from my job. FUCKING FABULOUS.
I seriously think I had a mental breakdown. Depression kicked in 15000384923%. So for the past 2 or 3 days I've been hiding out and feeling sorry for myself. Sounds reasonable to me, nothing else I can really do right now. Seems like the perfect thing to do to be quite honest. But I am doing better, about a 45% difference from what I was feeling the other day, which is a huge step. But I will tell you one thing, I got some pretty badass friends. They pretty much forced me to come hang out with them Wednesday night and they got me drunk, which is the PERFECT remedy. I was PLASTERED. I barely remember anything, haha. I remember losing it and crying nonstop but once my drunkness kicked in I was fine. Like I was happy, pissed off and didn't give a shit about anything. Apparently I was a hostile drunk, haha. My friend Ashley lives downstairs from my friends Chad, Elise and Aaron. Well Chad and them had people over and they were stomping around (I was at Ashley's) and I guess I would just sit there with a blank look on my face then all of a sudden I would get pissed and say "I swear to go they're fucking pissing me off I'll go up there and beat their fucking asses". I had no filter whatsoever, haha. Which is typical Katie Mulkey but it was definitely coming out more than usual.
But for now I'm just going to kick it and try and figure out what the hell I'm going to do.
Tomorrow I'm going to Missouri with Dustin to a rodeo because he's gonna ride a bull. SO FREAKING PUMPED. It's going to be me, Dustin, his girlfriend Lauren, Lance, Bryan and Dustin's dad. A fun group so I'm excited to get away. I think this is what I need right now.
All in all I know everything is going to be okay in the end, but I just needed to hit that rock bottom to remind myself that not everything is okay in life. It's just a minor bump in the road and yeah I'll get over it. But for now I'm going to take care of myself.