Insomnia.

Okay, insomnia has kicked in. Why can't I just go to sleep when I'm tired?!


Just have a lot of stuff on my mind right now: school, boys, family, friends, boys, school, boys, drama, how lame my life is, why I'm ALWAYS on facebook, boys, drama, school, family and tons more.


Main thing that's that on my mind though; my brother Andrew. He is currently stationed in Europe, Kosovo to be exact. I've only talked to him once since he has left and that was about a month and a half ago. Okay, maybe just a month, I'm not too sure. But like I said, I don't talk to him hardly at all and that makes me really sad. He's my brother and I love him and I would just really like to talk to him! His fiance, or however you spell that, made me realize how alike me and my brother are. We will defend our family "till the death", we're both hard headed, apparently we need to pull our heads out of our asses, and we'll do what we can to make everything easier on everybody. My brother and I have been through a lot, I mean A LOT. People have told me that they don't know how I have stayed so strong through everything, and honestly I don't know either. I just kind of went with the flow. But I have realized why I have been to strong; it's because I had my brother there with me. He is literally my backbone. We will ALWAYS be there for each other. He has protected me from so much it's not even funny. I have no idea what I would do without my brother bear. My life would never be the same without him here. But like I always tell myself, I have to stay strong and think positive thoughts. My brother is an American Soldier and he is defending our country and if anything happens to him, he will be honored for what he did, and that is pretty damn awesome. So now I say my three favorite words of all time: Support Our Troops.


Well I think maybe..just maybe..I'm going to try and go to sleep. Night.


Peace.